The sun peeks in through my tapestry
making my eyes flutter open.
I don’t have anything I need to do and there is know where to go,
but here
so I glance around my detailed room lazily instead of getting up:
There are three Star Wars posters on the wall
A New Hope
The Empire Strikes Back
and Return of the Jedi
A Star Wars calendar showing princess Leia holding a blaster in her white robes, reading March
On my mirror I have some stickers one being the Mandalorian and the Child
Just above the mirror is an oil painting I did a few years ago of Luke starring off into the Binary sunsets
On a separate wall is a bunch of some sketches I’ve done, among them are:
Darth Vader and Luke’s first lightsaber battle
Some pastel figures: R2, Boba, Rex, and some Stormtroopers
There is also a large Darth Maul sketch among them
Further to the left I have a media stand for my record player, above that sits my large collection of vinyl’s hanging on the wall
Just below is my movie collection, where all the Star Wars movies sit in order
Next to the record player is a magazine sorter which holds a few Star Wars editions
Lastly I look to my bookshelf, which is the most detailed, prized possession, in my room
It is filled with, probably too many books,
my mom says,
but is home to all my Star Wars books
Scattered throughout the bookshelf are little trinkets:
R2, the famous little droid
Cade Bane, a notorious bounty hunter in the Clone Wars
And the Millennium Falcon, the fastest ship in the galaxy
I noticed all the Star Wars things because I felt like Yoda must have on Dagobah all…
Alone

With only the Force to guide him.
To the right of my bed is my huge Twenty One Pilots flag I got on tour
I was still covered by the huge TOP quilt my sister got me for Christmas this last year
Back over by the record player was hanging each album on vinyl:
Vessel
Blurreyface
and Trench
Hopefully I’ll be able to get their first album on vinyl and Regional At Best
Thinking about TOP always made me think in general
I probably thought too much,
but that’s why I like TOP
Whatever is wrong with Tyler is wrong with me
This made me think about all the time I had on my hands
I could finally work on my blog, more painting, and sketch
I could…
Pour-Out

All this thinking made me glance back to me bookshelf
Up at the top on display was my Alice in Wonderland special edition, gold page, beautiful red book,
I’m painting the roses red, so that the queen doesn’t chop off my head
I’m staying inside, social distancing so that COVID doesn’t get inside my body
Below are some comic books my favorite being the many Joker ones I own
He smiles back at me from the bookshelf taunting me
I look away only to stare him in the face again
Sitting on top of my mirror next to Harley Quinn
Why does he bother me?
Usually he makes me smile
Perhaps it is because I am feeling…
Caged
I’m stuck here, not living
I think as I gaze at a mystical world painting I did
It is beautiful and I wish I was there
Instead of stuck in here
I can get away however
Looking towards the bookshelf once more
Into my many books are places to flee
I can get…
Lost

But whether it’s one of my Science Fiction books
Or a fantasy adventure it won’t be real life
As long as I stay here inside these stories I will always be on the…
Outside
Watching
Never being able to interact
Condemned until
We are able to go back into the world




One response to “Feeling”
This is a good piece you have written for 2020. Hoping COVID ends soon, and trusting God. His plan and His purpose. Keep up the creative writing, you have a gift.
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